For my two-year old

18 Mar

Dear Carissa,

Happy birthday!

Do you know that the first words I told you when I held you the first time when you were born were ‘Happy birthday?’ It has been two years already and I can’t believe it passed by so fast. From a 5.5-lb newborn baby, you’ve grown to be a very charming toddler that everyone loves.

They say childhood would pass by so fast, without warning. That before I’d know it, it’d be gone and that it’d caught me by surprise that you’d already be grown up. So they say to cherish each moment and live in it. Because it will all pass and someday I will miss them all.

How true! If I look back the past couple of years, each day and night seemed so long, like it will never end at all. But now that you’re 2, I wonder how did those two years flew by so quickly. They are now gone.

And I am missing the baby you. I miss the time when you were a newborn baby, your frailness and smallness, your smell, your helpless cry that sounded like a kitten, how you fell asleep in my arms while breastfeeding, how I am the only one who could comfort you (then). Sigh. I wish I could hold you as a baby once again.

So cherish each moment and live in it. I’m sorry because this is something I am failing to do. Whenever we’re home, I am preoccupied with the chores I need to do that I barely make an effort to really connect with you. At your developmental stage, mealtimes, diaper changing times, bath times, and bed times have become stressful that when I need to do them, I just want them to get over and done with. I function on a routine in auto-pilot, without being mindful of nor present in the moment.

And I am sorry for that. And for the times I yelled and hurt you when I lost my patience. I may say that I am disciplining you during the times I spanked you but I must admit, they were mostly done out of frustration on your normal two-year-old behaviors. They were times I lost control and didn’t exercise patience, understanding, or gentleness. There are really moments when my (and your) crankiness gets the better of me. And I’m sorry if I spanked you out of anger and not out of love.

But please know that I am trying hard to be a good parent, the best that all my person could be because I know how well you will turn out as an adult depends on me (and your father). But more so because being a good parent is a task I am accountable to God for. And I want you to be the best person God intended you to be. For this reason I always pray… That God would grant me wisdom and guidance on how to raise you well.

And I always tell you this. I always tell you to pray for me. When I feed you to sleep at night, when we talk to recap our day. I always tell you to pray for Nanay so that Nanay will know how to raise you, that Nanay will develop an intimate relationship with you, and that Nanay will have lots of patience, self-control, and would be gentle in disciplining you.

I am also always praying for you. And my most-fervent prayer is for you to grow up to be a God-fearing and God-honoring woman. I pray that you would grow to have a personal relationship with Jesus. That you would know Him as Lord and Savior. And I pray that you would make the decision to do so willingly, not because I or your Tatay, or a pastor or Sunday School teacher told you to, but because you have come to realize your fallen nature, your sinfulness, your need for a Savior, and because you understood the Gospel, the essence of what Jesus did on the cross. Of course, I would teach you all about these and the Bible as you grow up but I pray that you would develop an ‘inherent’ longing to study the Bible and get to know God for yourself.

More than this, I also pray that you would have a growing faith. And that you would live a life knowing God, loving God, worshipping God, serving God, and surrendered to God.

The other things I wish for you to be and to have are only secondary.

In spite of the stress that comes with motherhood, please know that I am deeply grateful that God gave you to us, your parents, as our first-born daughter. You are such a blessing and you are such an adorable baby. Yes, you’ve become a very energetic toddler, asserting control and independence, testing limits and boundaries. You sometimes disobey and deliberately do the very thing you are told not to. Your current favorite word is ‘ayaw‘ which you say a thousand times in a day it really gets tiring to hear of it sometimes. You have your share of tantrums. In other words, you are a very normal toddler. They call the age you’re in the ‘terrible twos’ but someone said that two-year olds shouldn’t be called terrible but ‘terrific’ instead.

Some of the behaviors you exhibit right now may be terrible but you are, indeed, at a terrific age because you are growing up and learning so fast. I am really amazed and proud how you’ve grown to be a very independent, two-year old toddler. Your skills are advanced for your age. You can already communicate very well and you have a very wide vocabulary that grows more each day. I am surpised when you say things I didn’t expect you to already know. And you are such a beautiful, sweet, loving, friendly, and smart baby. And I say these not only because I am your mother (and, okay, I admit, I am conceited) but because people have been telling those things, too. I couldn’t be more proud.

For all these and for you I am immensely thankful and grateful to God. You have brought so much joy to us, your Nanay and Tatay.

So on your 2nd birthday (and always), I declare this blessing for you:

The Lord bless you and keep you;

the Lord make his face shine on you and be gracious to you;

the Lord turn his face toward you and give you peace.

-Numbers 6:24-26

Happy birthday, Anak. Nanay and Tatay love you so much.



Longing for our unborn child

8 Feb

The thing that saddened me most when the reality that I had a miscarriage finally sank in was the thought that our family is now incomplete. In every occassion that we will celebrate, we will miss our second child who will never be born and whom we will never have the chance to meet, not in this lifetime.

No cardiac activity

When we went for an ultrasound scan a month ago, I was excited to show it off to my husband because when I had my initial scan with our firstborn in 2015, he was not allowed to be with me. He wasn’t there when the doctor confirmed I was pregnant for the first time and he wasn’t able to see our baby on the ultrasound screen.

I felt he was deprived of his right as a father. So I was determined this time to make sure he would be allowed to accompany me when I had my scan. We already had one done a week before Christmas but it was way too early that only the sac could be seen yet. We needed another scan for a pregnancy viability check and for a more accurate dating. I was excited and more so for Eugene who would finally be able to see the ‘first look’ of our second baby. I recalled my experience with our first and described to him again how Baby Caris looked like at 6 weeks old (still an embryo that looked like a tadpole) and how she (as an embryo) pulsated on the screen (her heartbeat). On our way to the clinic, I couldn’t contain my excitement and I kept telling my husband he will see the first sign of life of our second baby.

The first thing I asked the doctor upon checking me was if there was a heartbeat. But the doctor said she hasn’t gotten to that part yet. She first took some measurements and said the baby was 8 weeks old (which matched the baby’s approximate gestational age based on our first ultrasound scan). Further along, however, the doctor said she could not find a heartbeat. The doctor also said the fetus did not move which, at 8 weeks old, could and should already be seen swimming in my tummy. Still, she didn’t right away declared my pregnancy was non-viable but advised me, instead, to have another scan after a week to confirm.

The news was depressing, to say the least. Especially because we were able to reach 8 weeks and, through the ultrasound, we already saw how the fetus was starting to take the shape of a human being. I guess my initial reaction was denial. I didn’t believe I could miscarry. After a successful, low-risk, and a ‘relatively easy’ pregnancy with my daughter, I could not believe I would be part of the statistics of pregnant women who end up with a miscarriage.

The very next day all my pregnancy symptoms disappeared. And it made me more depressed, because it sort of confirmed the doctor’s diagnosis. I cried to my husband. I prayed for a miracle and hoped that it was just a misdiagnosis. But I knew that the miracle won’t happen. I told my husband I had the gut feeling our baby was dead.

A week after, we had another scan where it still showed a fetus with ‘no cardiac activity’. Not only that, the fetus still measured and remained at 8 weeks old in size. It did not grow. The doctor had a few more findings but they all just confirmed that our baby was dead. My pregnancy was officially diagnosed to have an ‘early embryonic demise.’

Side note: In my estimate, I am 10 weeks along the way, at the least, during my 3rd/last scan. This means that if my estimate is correct, I was 9 weeks along when I had the 2nd scan, when we found out that our baby didn’t have a heartbeat. Which further means that if my estimate is correct, our baby have already been dead for a week before we found out.

Missed miscarriage

So I had a miscarriage. But at that time (after my last ultrasound scan) I didn’t know if I had a miscarriage or if I will have a miscarriage because the fetus was still inside me. I didn’t know dead babies could remain in the womb and stay there for some time. I thought that when you lose a pregnancy, your body immediately expels the baby out.

(My case was a missed miscarriage or silent miscarriage. Google the term to find out why it is referred that way.)

My OB-Gyne gave me an option how would I want to manage my miscarriage. I could opt to have a D&C (dilation and curettage or what is locally know as raspa) or wait for my body to naturally expel the fetus out (expectant management). I chose the latter. Not only for practical reasons but because I was afraid of going through surgery (D&C). Both options has its pros and cons. With expectant management, however, you don’t know when it will happen. It could take a week, or two, or three, or sometimes even a whole month before your body recognizes that you had a miscarriage and pass the fetus out.

Because I opted not to undergo surgery, I had to endure the agony of waiting. It was difficult because while my baby was still in my womb, I remained in denial. And even if there wasn’t any glimmer of hope when we had our last scan, until my body hasn’t expelled the fetus out, I still hoped for a miracle.

For three weeks (since finding out about it), I carried a dead fetus in my body. And it did eventually happen. On January 31, I had a miscarriage. Now I am no longer pregnant.

The experience wasn’t difficult physically. It felt like mild menstrual cramps (like having dysmenorrhea) and the pain lasted only for a night and the following morning. Once the fetus passed the following day, my body felt okay as if nothing happened.

The emotional experience was a different story. A part of me felt relieved because it put closure to the pregnancy that I lost. It also prompted me to move on. Another part of me, however, just started to grieve.


Someone asked me if I am able to conclude that God has a purpose for what happened. I answered, ‘no’. Well, not yet, at least. I believe God has a purpose for everything but I haven’t come to the point yet where I can confidently say that God has a purpose for this loss. I know he has. I am just not there yet. I am at the stage where I’m asking and looking for answers.

Honestly, I worried a lot when I was pregnant because I wasn’t in my best health. I felt exhausted during the early weeks of my pregnancy and I often experienced shortness of breath just doing simple tasks. There were also a few times I felt dizzy for a few seconds. I never experienced these things during my first pregnancy.

It was the Christmas season and we went out and stayed out late a lot. And because we were always out, we usually ate fast foods. (At home we eat healthy meals). My body was craving for a break. I had a toddler to take care of (who still breastfeeds and who I still carry around) and chores to do (which I couldn’t forego because they would just pile up and nobody else would do them. I will just end up more stressed when the chores pile up). I got exposed to indoor second-hand smoke for a few hours during the early weeks of my pregnancy and I got exposed to chlorine when I cleaned our bathroom before I knew I was pregnant.

I felt guilty with all of these and I worried it will affect the health of my baby because I was not able to take care of myself during the most critical time of my pregnancy. But I figured nothing will be accomplished by worrying so I always prayed that God would make everything turn out fine, that our baby would turn out to be a healthy baby (boy). I prayed that God would prove me wrong, that He would make me realize in the end that my worrying is useless. But, our baby did not make it past the first trimester. S/he died at 8 weeks old.

And I’ve been wondering why.

A friend who also had a miscarriage a long time ago said that it was a sad experience for her and she also didn’t know why it happened. But she was thankful for the few weeks that God allowed her to have a baby in her womb. I wish I could say the same for myself. I’m sure I will, if not soon, later on. But right now, I am wondering why God allowed me to conceive but only for 8 weeks. Why did I need to get pregnant and eventually lose it? Would things have turned out differently if I was able to take even a little care of myself? I ask even though I know I will probably never know the answer.


I would lie if I would say that all I felt was excitement when I found out I was pregnant. To be honest, a part of me dreaded the thought of having two kids when I could barely survive with having only one.

But… I was happy, thankful, and excited. I was happy, thankful, and excited that I was able to conceive again naturally. Considering that I had PCOS. I was happy, thankful, and excited that Baby Caris would not be an only child. That she would have a sibling, a playmate, and that she would be a big sister. And I was happy, thankful, and excited that we were growing our family.

And in as much as I worried for the health of my baby, I already imagined and looked forward to the moments and memories I was supposed to have with him/her.

I looked forward to giving birth to him/her and meeting him/her for the first time. To holding him/her and kissing him/her.

To breastfeeding him/her.

To tandem nursing.

To smelling him/her and his/her newborn scent.

To watching him/her fall asleep at my breast. To seeing his/her milk-drunken face.

To snuggling him/her.

To soothing him/her when s/he cries.

To staring at him/her as s/he gazes at me when s/he breastfeeds.

To Baby Caris loving him/her, and caring for him/her.

To seeing them fight but eventually making up and getting along. To seeing them being the best of friends.

To the many firsts and milestones s/he will accomplish.

To a lot of other moments and memories.

And to the chaos and joy of raising a family.

But for now, all these will remain as longings. Longings for the child I will never bear.

Our 2017 year in review

1 Jan

The highlights of our family’s past year. We praise and honor God for the grace that saw us through.

Read our 2016 year in review here.


01.14. BABY SHOWER FOR THE TUANQUIS. We (GCF pastors’ wives) threw a baby shower for Pastor Gelo and Nikki Tuanqui who were expecting a baby boy then (their second child). The baby was born on February 3 and was named Andrei Nigel (Nigel being a combination of the parents name). The shower was held in Pastor Manny Enriquez’s house in Quezon City. Photo by Nikki Tuanqui.

01.16-18. PASTORS’ RETREAT. David in the wilderness. This was the topic during our Church’s annual satellite-wide pastors’ and wives’ retreat which is something I always look forward to attending at the start of each year. It was held in CCT in Tagaytay and we had Pastor Carlos Peña as our speaker for the second time around. Photo by Jojun Loanzon, taken from Greenhills Christian Fellowship’s Facebook page.

01.21. AVENDULA’S HOUSE DEDICATION. Eugene officiated the dedication and blessing of the house of the Avendula family in Cavite. It was also a celebration for Alvin’s birthday. Alvin and Joneth Avendula are part of GCF’s Connect Ministry. I wasn’t able to join because our baby had colds then and Eugene told us to just stay at home. Photo by Lea Galela.

01.29. MAU’S 1ST BIRTHDAY. We celebrated with Clark and Diane De Guzman as their first-born daughter baby Mau turned one. It was a fun bohemian-themed party held in the clubhouse of SM Jazz in Makati. Photo by Robert Claudio.


02.04. TIRA-ANDAL NUPTIALS. Sorry for the dark picture but this is the only picture we were able to take with #TeamPaRoll when they got married in Lirabelle Nature Living in Sto. Tomas, Batangas. Their wedding was God-centered and I love how Rollyvic and Pamela shared their testimonies during the reception. I’m very sure their marriage is one that would honor God.

02.06-11. HOSPITAL CONFINEMENT. Our little one (LO) and Eugene got admitted in The Medical City for pneumonia. Yes, both of them at the same time got confined for the same sickness. Not only that, Eugene was also diagnosed with cardiomyopathy (weak heart). He took a lot of medicines when he got discharged from the hospital and is currently under a 16-session cardiac rehabilitation program to “treat” his heart condition.

02.12. GCF’S 39TH ANNIVERSARY. The following Sunday after our LO was discharged from the hospital was our Church’s 39th anniversary. I didn’t want to go then because Eugene was still in the hospital and I was feeling depressed then. But Eugene urged me to go. I’m glad my sister and mother-in-law were there to accompany me or else I wouldn’t have gone. I felt more sad when I saw all the pastors in their suits and Eugene was not there with them. Photo from GCF’s Facebook page.

02.20-22. GCF STAFF RETREAT. A time of refreshing. These are Eugene’s co-workers when they went to GCF’s staff retreat at Mt. Makiling Recreation Center in Batangas. They sure look like they had a fun time. Photo by Eugene Geanga.


03.03-05. 2ND HOSPITAL CONFINEMENT. Just a month after getting out of the hospital, our LO got admitted again for pneumonia. It was a sad moment again for me. What was more sad was I was alone most of the time (Eugene only came in the evenings) in The Medical City taking care of her as Eugene had to drive and tour his family who were in Manila that time for a vacation.

03.04. YANNA’S 1ST BIRTHDAY. Since baby and I were in the hospital we missed this party, Baby Yanna’s first birthday celebration and dedication which Eugene officiated in San Pedro, Laguna. Yanna is the second daughter of Mary Ann Kho who is Eugene’s high school classmate and friend from Dumaguete. Photo by Maya Geanga.

03.06. FAMILY-IN-LAW VISITS MANILA. I was able to join Eugene’s family on their last day in Manila before they headed back home to Dumaguete the following day. Eugene actually didn’t want us (baby and me) to go out of the house yet because baby just got out of the hospital the previous day. But I insisted. I’ve already been alone for 3 days in a hospital and I was really depressed already I didn’t want to be left alone at home. Actually, I even begged the doctor to discharge us home. So if I would be staying alone at home, I might as well have stayed in the hospital. Good thing Eugene allowed me to go with them (after a lot of pleading. Haha). We met with friends, hung out, had a late lunch in The Podium, and dinner in SM Megamall where this picture was taken. Photo by Elgin Vailoces.

03.11-12. CONNECT MINISTRY GROWTH GROUP LEADERS RETREAT. We tagged along as Eugene went to Wilson’s Place in Mendez, Cavite (but people refer to the place as Tagaytay) to lead and facilitate a prayer retreat for the Growth Group leaders of Connect. Having gone a lot of times to the usual camp/retreat sites, Wilson’s Place was a welcome change in venue and is definitely a place to go back to if you want a homey feeling (and good food) when you go to a retreat. (It is owned and managed by the same owners of Balay Indang also in Cavite). Photo by Rajsh Velasquez.

03.18. OUR LITTLE ONE’S 1ST BIRTHDAY. We celebrated our daughter’s first birthday and dedication with a simple fund-raising event in Shiphrah (in Taytay, Rizal), the birthing home where she was born. We were able to raise PhP21,000 for the birthing home which was used for the renovation and continuing education of the midwives of Shiphrah. Photo by Niño Hidalgo.

03.26. BABY SHOWER FOR THE NEGIS. We joined when their friends organized a baby shower for Shyam and Christy Negi who were expecting their first baby then, a baby boy. The party was held in GCF. During the party, the couple shared that they would be blessing their baby with the name Noah after the Old Testament Bible character who was described as a righteous and blameless man and was used by God to save the human race. Baby Noah was born on May 22 but he lived for only 10 days due to a congenital heart condition.

03.29. AQUINOS’ PHILIPPINE VACATION. My sister, Ate Meg, and her husband, Kuya Eric, who now live in Canada, went home to the Philippines for a vacation. Kuya Eric migrated there in 1994 and my sister followed in 1998 after which they got married there shortly after. The last Kuya Eric’s been home was about 14 years ago in 2003. Ate Meg was able to go home in 2010 for our wedding but without Kuya Eric. It was nice to see them after a long, long time. This was the first time Eugene met Kuya Eric. Photo by Eugene taken in Marco Polo Ortigas.


04.01. VISIT TO A WAKE. It was good to meet and be with my former Growth Group friends but the reason for our get-together was quite a sad one. We went to Cabanatuan to visit the wake of Joan Tuazon’s dad who died of a sudden heart attack. We traveled in spite of the distance and traffic (we left Manila at about 2 PM, arrived in Cabanatuan at about 8.30 PM, and arrived back home at about 1.30 AM) not only to show our sympathies to our friend and her family but also because Joan would be migrating to Canada by the end of the month and we wanted to fellowship with her before she leaves the country for good.

04.02. FAMILY DINNER. This was a time of fellowship with our balikbayan sister and brother-in-law with my other siblings. Too bad we still weren’t complete as a family but it was good to get-together with my other family members. The photo was taken in Cafe Juanita but we ordered food from Haru. Photo by Blas Tiangco.

04.04. DINNER WITH THE AQUINOS. This was our last time to meet with Kuya Eric and Ate Meg during their Philippine vacation before they finally went back to Canada. Kuya Eric’s parents invited us to join them for dinner at NIU by Vikings in SM Aura Premier (a couple of Kuya Eric’s friends also joined us). I was at a grill station when an earthquake hit and the cook panicked, telling his colleague, “Pare, lumilindol!”. You can sense his nervousness by the tone of his voice. It was the strong earthquake that shook Batangas that had a lot of aftershocks that lasted for days. In Manila, it was only slightly felt.

04.13. MAUNDY THURSDAY/KAREN’S BIRTHDAY. We are grateful to the Handogs and the Kabuhats for inviting us to their homes in Pasig for a grill and (baby) pool party to celebrate Karen’s birthday. It was a holiday and we were happy not to have spent it alone at home. We had so much fun eating and ate a lot we forgot to take a decent picture to at least document the event. Photo by Yayeeh Handog.

04.15. BLACK SATURDAY. We usually go home to and spend the Holy Week in Batangas but Eugene was not available for Good Friday so we just went on a day trip to visit my family there on Black Saturday. We ate lunch at Wanam sa Bukid (which was quite a disappointment) then did a side trip to Montemaria in Brgy. Pagkilatan since it was very near our place. Montemaria is a pilgrimage site but we went there mainly for the view of the ocean. The place is a plateau that overlooks the Verde Island Passage and Batangas Bay.

04.19. FAREWELL TO JOAN. I was supposed to go to our monthly pastors’ wives’ fellowship when our Growth Group-mate and friend Joan messaged me that her family was in Manila for the very last time and invited us to join them for dinner before they leave for Canada to finally migrate the following week. It has been a long wait for Joan as she and her husband, Ed, applied for her petition and I was happy for them that they would finally be together at last. We (YACIES Growth Group) had dinner at Wooden Spoon in Power Plant Mall in Rockwell, Makati. After dinner we went to Bonifacio Global City in Taguig for coffee. Ed wanted to go to Tim Hortons and try it out (to compare the taste with the original) but we went to the branch that was still closed (the one opened was in Uptown Mall which we didn’t know then) and ended up going to Starbucks instead. Photo by Luan Yara.

04.19. BUMPING INTO AN OLD COUSIN. While having dinner in Wooden Spoon, I saw Ivy, an old cousin whom I haven’t seen for a very long time. I called her and actually introduced myself because I was afraid she might not remember me anymore. Haha. Well, I was wrong. It was nice seeing her and the relatives she was with. Her eldest son, Trevor, is all grown up. The last (and I think the first and only time I saw him) was he was still a toddler. So it’s been that long. Photo by Ivy Gutierrez.

04.22. ARYAN’S 1ST BIRTHDAY. We celebrated with Alwin and Johanna De Leon as they celebrated the first birthday and dedication of their 3rd son, Aryan Jacob. The MC for the event really made sure that the guests had fun with his games, puppet shows, and funny acts. The party was held in Quezon City Sports Club.

04.24. CATCHING UP WITH THE UTZURRUMS. Every year, Eugene’s best friend, JP, and his family who are currently based in Thailand, visits the Philippines and we never fail to meet with them when they’re in Manila. We always meet in SM Megamall and this year the meeting place was no different. We ate a very sumptuous buffet in Sambokojin which I enjoyed. It’s my first time to eat in that restaurant and I thought it was just like any other DIY grill buffet we’ve been to. But they had food choices that were not available in Tong Yang (the one we more frequently are able to go to) and that made my dining experience an enjoyable one.


05.06. CONNECT MINISTRY OUTREACH. Every month in 2017, the different Growth Groups of the Connect Ministry take turns in conducting an outreach to the children in the community of the International Graduate School of Leadership (IGSL) in Quezon City. We joined one Growth Group once and met with the kids they were ministering to. They also reach out to the parents of the kids as they simultaneously conduct a Bible Study to the parents while waiting for their kids. (Sorry for the very abstract photo. I couldn’t find a group shot).

05.08. MANIPON-SANTOS NUPTIALS. For the second time, we served as secondary sponsors in a wedding of a couple from the Connect Ministry. Alex and Ray’s wedding was a simple one but very heartfelt. It was held in GCF Center.


05.13. TRIP TO MAJAYJAY. We (friends from the Connect Ministry) went to Taytay Falls in Majayjay, Laguna. We left Manila early in the morning but reached the place at 4 PM so we just had a very short time to enjoy the place. I actually didn’t swim at all. I just dipped into the water to take this picture then got out right after the shot. The water was too cold!

05.20-31. MINISTRY IN DUMAGUETE. Eugene got invited to serve as speaker for the Youth Camp of Dumaguete Christian Church (DCC). The camp was held in Camp Seasite in Brgy. Banilad. Read details of our trip here. After the camp, we stayed a few days longer for a much-needed vacation.

05.29. MY BIRTHDAY. We celebrated my 37th birthday with a simple dinner with my family-in-law in Lantaw Native Restaurant in Dumaguete. I think Lantaw is one of the best restaurants in Dumaguete as they are always full regardless of the day or time of the week. I think it was my first time to spend my birthday far out of town.


06.01. EUGENE’S BIRTHDAY. As always, we celebrate either of our birthdays (which is only three days apart) by dining in a restaurant that serves a buffet. We went again to NIU by Vikings for hubby’s birthday this year. Their free meal for the birthday celebrant makes the cost so worth it.

06.03. MEMORIAL SERVICE FOR BABY NOAH. It was a very sad moment for Eugene and I as we sympathized with Shyam and Cristy Negi when they lost their newborn son, Noah. Baby Noah was born with a heart condition called transposition of the great arteries. He lived just over a week. During the memorial service, Shyam gave a testimony and have proven his big faith in God through which a lot of people, I’m sure, was blessed. The memorial service was held in GCF.


06.10. MIGUEL-AÑONUEVO NUPTIALS. We just took a quick picture with Dags and Joan right after their wedding ceremony in Sonya’s Garden, Tagaytay, as we needed to leave right away to rush our LO to the hospital as she was sick. Too bad we weren’t able to stay for the rest of their celebration.

No photo: 06.10-14. 3RD HOSPITAL CONFINEMENT. I didn’t take pictures when our LO got confined again because by that time I was (emotionally) tired of it. It was the third time she was admitted for pneumonia in a span of just four months that I already knew the routine we had to go through when we got in The Medical City’s pediatric ER. This was the last time she needed to be admitted in a hospital but it was not her last sickness. We had one more visit to the ER where she was again diagnosed with pneumonia (in July) but thankfully did not need to be admitted. And she had three more other instances of getting sick with respiratory infections (in October, November, and December). Thankfully, she didn’t need to be confined during those times but she needed to be nebulized with Salbutamol at home. I am hoping 2018 will be a healthy year for all of us.


07.01. SISTER ACT. My brother Blas treated us to the play ‘Sister Act’ which was shown in The Theater at Solaire. It was also my sister Ruth’s birthday that day so it was a double celebration for us. The show was really a good and fun one. They sang all original songs and the story had a good twist from the movie version.

07.09. OUR WEDDING ANNIVERSARY. We went to our first beach trip as a family in Lobo, Batangas to celebrate our 7th wedding anniversary. We didn’t go to a resort (we were on a budget) but crashed an old high school classmate’s house which was located beside the sea.

07.21-23. CONNECT MINISTRY CAMP. I thought I won’t be able to go with Eugene to this camp because our LO got sick a few days before this. Thankfully, the doctor allowed us to travel as long as I give our LO her medicines. This was the camp of the Connect Ministry of GCF held in Word of Life in Calauan, Laguna. I am very grateful to God and give him all the glory for how He is using Eugene to reach out and minister to professionals in the BPO industry. Photo by Phoebe Guerra.


08.07-09. GCF STAFF RETREAT. A retreat and team building activity for the GCF Staff held in Ten Cents to Heaven Leisure Camp in Tanay, Rizal. Photo by one of Eugene’s colleague.

08.21-22. KHO’S HOUSE DEDICATION. Eugene officiated the dedication of the house of his high school friend Mary Ann Kho in San Pedro, Laguna. We stayed for a couple of nights in their new house.

08.27. WEST SIDE STORY. My brother treated us again to a play in The Theater at Solaire. We watched The West Side Story this time. I am familiar with the story as I have seen its movie version a long, long time ago. The performances during the song and dance numbers were good but I personally felt that the conversations in between were a bit bland. But it was still a good show, nevertheless, even if it didn’t get a standing ovation.

08.27. RAJSH’S BIRTHDAY. While I watched The West Side Story, Eugene took care of our LO and joined the birthday celebration of one of our good friends, Rajsh, in Vikings in SM Megamall.


09.06. BABY SHOWER FOR THE DEL ROSARIOS. There’s a baby boom among the pastoral staff of GCF. The pastors’ wives’ showered Mark and Kris Del Rosario with blessings and prayers for the birth of their first-born daughter, Baby Maddie. She was born on September 25. This is the 5th baby born to a pastor in GCF in just a span of one year. There are two more babies on the way in 2018. Photo by Mark Del Rosario.


10.15. THE SOUND OF MUSIC. The 3rd musical play which our brother treated us to. I’ve seen the local production of The Sound of Music a few years ago but I will never get tired of seeing this classic play. We saw the international production shown in The Theater at Solaire. Photo by Blas Tiangco.

10.28. MATTHIAS EHMYRR’S DEDICATION. Eugene officiated the dedication of Baby Matt, first-born son of Jerry Mhe and Pearl Francisco, members of the Connect Ministry. The event was held in Kowloon House in West Avenue in Quezon City.


11.04. ELORA CELESTE’S DEDICATION. It’s another baby girl for Ernest and Gayle Acar. We celebrated with them the dedication of the newest addition to their family, Baby Elora. It was also a time of catching up with the rest of Ernest’s family who are Eugene’s extended family. The celebration was held in La Creperie in Forbes Town Center in Burgos Circle, BGC.

11.08. BUSINESS DEDICATION. Eugene officiated the dedication of a newly-owned parlor establishment of Yan (left most), a YACIES Growth Group member. Try to catch and get your hair done in Emmanuel Salon along Aurora Blvd. (near J. Ruiz LRT station) in Quezon City. Photo by PJ De Leon.

11.18. PASTORS’ WIVES’ CHRISTMAS PARTY. Ate Li Pantoja was very kind enough to join us and share to us a message on Christmas for our pastors’ wives’ Christmas fellowship in GCF. Photo by Chette King.

11.25-26. CONNECT MINISTRY CORE TEAM RETREAT. I’m happy I always get to tag along in Eugene’s travels and ministry. This was a time of refreshing as the core team of the ministry Eugene leads took a break from the daily grind in Balay Indang in Cavite. Photo by Rajsh Velasquez.

11.29-12.02. CBAP BIENNIAL CONFERENCE. It’s my first time to join the Biennial Conference of the Conservative Baptist Association of the Philippines. I was happy and grateful to God that I was able to tag along Eugene and a couple of his co-pastors (even if I was not able to listen to the sessions because I was chasing a toddler around). The event was held in Crown Legacy Hotel in Baguio City. Accommodation was okay but the service was really bad.


12.08-09. BHGG CHRISTMAS PARTY. This Growth Group that Eugene leads every Monday evening (Burning Hearts) had a videoke night as a celebration for the past couple of Christmases. This year, they decided to go out of town. We visited a farm/resort of one of their Growth Group-mates in Bataan and spent a couple of nights there. We drove up Mt. Samat (where this picture was taken) which was very near from where we stayed. It was a relaxing time. It was just too bad we were not complete.

12.09. NATHAN ELIJAH’S DEDICATION. Eugene officiated the dedication of Elche and Fhang Dela Peña’s first-born, baby Nathan. The celebration was held in Max’s Restaurant in Forbes Town Center in Burgos Circle, BCG.


12.13. BABY NO. 2. Though I was already suspecting that I was pregnant, I also had doubts since I had PCOS which makes it hard for me to get pregnant. In fact, it took us five years after we got married before I got pregnant. Confirming this second pregnancy has actually been quite a suspense because it took me three home pregnancy tests (and three days) to get a positive result. The first one didn’t give any results. So I waited another day to do another test but the second one gave invalid results. We waited another day and only confirmed it after the third test I took.

12.16. CONNECT MINISTRY CHRISTMAS PARTY. I’m in the picture but I came in late. Actually, I arrived a few minutes before they ended (lunch time). Tried to catch the lechon only to know that they’ve eaten it first thing in the morning as part of their program. I should have known about their schedule, of course, as this was a Christmas celebration of the ministry that Eugene is leading, the ministry to professionals in the business process outsourcing (BPO) industry. Their party actually started at 7 AM in the morning in GCF. Photo by Robert Claudio.

12.20. GCF STAFF CHRISTMAS PARTY. It’s my second time to join GCF’s Staff Christmas party. It was a simple celebration where they had lunch in Aracama in BGC. Ptr. Lloyd Estrada was our guest who gave a message on Christmas. Food was good! Especially the adobo! Photo by Chette King.

12.20. MOMMY’S BIRTHDAY. It was a blessing that our family got to get-together to celebrate my mother’s 76th birthday. My brother-in-law and niece and nephews were able to join us so it was quite a big celebration for us. My sister followed later on. We dined in Yabu in Robinsons Galleria. Eugene, not seen in the photo as he was feeding our LO, is behind my brother Blas. My mom is already old. She fell hard last July (missed the last two steps in a stairs) and broke a pelvic bone and has been in bed rest since. She has been in pain but we praise God she is now able to walk albeit very slowly and with a cane. We also praise God for her good health. At her age she doesn’t take any maintenance medication and her sugar and blood pressure are normal. She also looks very young for her age. If she didn’t had a fracture, she would still be very strong and active. Photo by Blas Tiangco.

12.25. CHRISTMAS. My mother, sister, and brother spent Christmas with us. We had a very simple celebration at home on Christmas Eve then for Christmas Day, we went out for dinner at Ba Noi’s in Estancia Mall. I wanted to go to Estancia to see their Christmas lights display in their Vast Imaginariums but the line to go in was long and we were already hungry by the time we got there so we were not able to see it. Photo by Ruth Tiangco.

12.29. LUNCH WITH GGS. Pastor Erik and his wife, Ate Ruth, invited the Growth Group Shepherding team for a year-end lunch. Of course, we spouses were invited, too. We had lunch in Burgoo in Robinsons Galleria and just had fellowship and exchanged stories with each other. Photo by Ptr. Erik Dizon.

12.29. DINNER WITH CONNECT MINISTRY COUPLES. It was a triple date for us as we celebrated Alex Manipon’s birthday and dined in Oasis Garden Cafe in Solaire Resort and Casino. Oasis is a fancy open-space resto in Solaire but I was actually quite bothered because the entire place smelled smoke (which came from the casino) but the food was really, really good (and expensive! ‘Eto ‘yung tipo ng restaurant na nagiging Chinese ka sa pagbasa ng menu… you read from right to left. Haha!) We were supposed to have dessert and coffee at a nearby Starbucks afterwards but ended up in Starbucks Nuvali instead. Photo by Rajsh Velasquez.

12.31. NEW YEAR’S EVE. And this was how we ended 2017. Can anything be more simpler than this? We had siomai, nilagang baboy, and liempo for dinner. All meat. That’s what happens when you ask hubby to take care of dinner. At least the sabaw had vegetables so I’m happy with that :). I think this is the only (or 2nd) time we have ever celebrated a year end alone as we usually spend it with my family in the province (or we had Nanay with us when we were not in Batangas).

A beach trip

14 Jul

We commemorated our wedding anniversary with a very simple celebration… a sort of impromptu trip to the beach. Impromptu because everything was done at the last minute. If budget wasn’t an issue, I would have planned an activity or a vacation way ahead of time. But since it was, we didn’t have definite plans how to celebrate our 7th anniversary. Also, we weren’t sure if Eugene’s schedule would allow him to be away from work. He asked permission just a couple of days earlier and thankfully, he was allowed to take a leave.

Selfie galore. Our little one (LO) seems afraid of the boat ride with the way she held unto her Tatay. Or she was just sleepy.

And then a day before we were supposed to travel to the beach our little one (LO) had a runny nose which made me ‘paranoid’ because the last time she had a runny nose (just a month ago) she got confined the following day (for the 3rd time in just a span of five months) for pneumonia. Apparently, my LO’s lungs (and immune system) are weak so a simple cough or cold could escalate quickly into pneumonia. So I had second thoughts if we should push through with the trip we’ve been wanting to go to since summer but got canceled.

Our LO enjoyed her first beach experience…the sand and the waves were all new to her.

Because going to a resort is out of the question, I contacted an old classmate of mine who lives beside the beach and unashamedly asked him if he could accommodate us and tour us around (yes, gan’on ka-kapal ang mukha ko). I and my classmates had been to his house when we were in college and I remember that we went on a boat trip before. What prompted me to contact him was his Facebook post of their new boat early last summer.

7 years of togetherness…and a baby.

It was just a day trip and we didn’t really swim but just hung out by the beach. We were supposed to go to the Malabrigo Lighthouse but halfway through the waves got strong so Russel, my classmate, decided to go back lest we won’t be able to later if we decided to proceed with the boat trip.

We went with my family (my mom and sister). This shot is with my classmate, Russel. Thank you so much for hosting us.

We thank God for the gift of marriage and for His faithfulness to us for 7 years.

Batangas is known for its beaches. There are no five-star resorts here but I love this place because it is still undiscovered and undeveloped so not a lot of people go here and is, therefore, clean. Hope it remains this way but this place is already being detected by the radar as I’ve been reading about it in blogs recently.

Credits to my sister for the photos.

Family trip: Dumaguete 2017

4 Jun

While we were unloading our luggages upon arriving in the airport, Eugene said that he left his backpack in GCF (where we came from). It contained his laptop which contained his sermon notes so without second thoughts, he went back.

The funny thing is, while Eugene was locking up our luggages and was about to book an Uber, we saw two friends on their way to Batangas and he jokingly asked them if they would like to drive us to the airport. They obliged. And so Eugene was happy to have gotten a free ride to the airport… only to actually pay double the taxi fare later on because of the bag he accidentally left.

The first agenda of our trip… Eugene preaching at Dumaguete Christian Church (DCC).

Not only did Eugene left his backpack. When our luggages were weighed when we checked-in for our flight, we exceeded our baggage allowance for the plane ride. Ha! I somehow got a feeling we would actually be doing so, inspite of packing as lightly as I could, bringing clothes less than the number of days we would be staying in Dumaguete.

Reunited with Gran’ma Maya.

Eugene readily obliged to pay PhP 800 as penalty for exceeding 4 kg beyond our luggage weight limit. I, however, was not willing to ‘dispose’ that amount so I tried to negotiate with the airline crew and asked if we could forego it. ‘Di tumalab yung charm ko. Tsk! (Minsan daw kasi nadadaan sa pakiusap, ‘pag maayos yung pag-request mo). To avoid paying the penalty, we just hand carried Eugene’s luggage.

And that’s how our trip started… we haven’t even left Manila yet and I was feeling stressed already. I was just so thankful that we went to the airport early so Eugene had enough time to get his bag and travel back to the airport. And also that it was a Saturday so traffic was relatively light. Imagine if we didn’t leave home early and if it was a weekday. And imagine if Eugene didn’t make it back to the airport on time. I was also thankful that Eugene’s luggage was small enough to be hand carried.

Eugene preached on ‘Encountering Jesus’ on the Sunday morning before the start of the youth camp.


We traveled to Dumaguete because Eugene served as speaker in the youth camp of Dumaguete Christian Church (DCC), a church attended mostly by Chinese in Eugene’s hometown. Pastor Thomas Sioson, their Youth Pastor who was Eugene’s classmate (in high school as well as in college in Silliman), invited him to talk to their youth on ‘rising above the label of being a mellenial’, the theme for DCC’s 4th summer camp held from May 21 to 26 in Camp Seasite in Banilad, Dumaguete.

Lunch with Elder Emmanuel Ho after Eugene preached. We are very grateful for Elder Emmanuel because he has extended a lot of effort in accommodating us during the camp.

Before the camp started, Eugene also preached in DCC the following morning after our arrival. The camp officially started after DCC’s Worship Service that Sunday, in the afternoon, and Eugene had his first speaking session that evening.

We had a blessed time serving and ministering in Dumaguete. It is always good to go to a church and meet new people you share the same faith with. Though Eugene already knows a few people in DCC or at least some faces are familiar with him since Dumaguete is just a small town that it’d not be unusual to meet people you know in small get togethers.

Eugene giving the message on the second night of the camp.

“Since, then, you have been raised with Christ, set your hearts on things above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things. For you died, and your life is now hidden with Christ in God.” –Colossians 3:1-3

This was the theme verse of the camp. In addition to Eugene’s exposition on this Bible verse on the first night, he talked about the life of Jonah for the rest of the sessions. There were about 60 campers who went to the camp. I am sorry to say, though, that we had very limited interaction with them. I, however, would say that they were receptive of the messages and were very honest in sharing their struggles and in asking questions.

The theme of the camp.

Camp culture

Unlike our youth camps in our church where we have plenary sessions in the morning, in the afternoon, and in the evening, the sessions in DCC’s youth camp were held only in the evening. I couldn’t actually believe when, before the camp, Eugene said he was speaking and, therefore, would go to the camp site only in the evening. I kept asking him if he’s sure with such arrangement and if he wouldn’t be needed in the camp during the day because I’m used to having our speakers present with us for the whole duration when we have our youth camp in our church.

Lunch with a DCC member’s family at Dong Juan.

It turned out such schedule worked for us. It afforded us time to relax during the day and we were not pressured to wake up early and be in a hurry to eat breakfast and get dressed in the morning… a very difficult ordeal when you have a baby. Haha. And even though the sessions were scheduled from 8 to 9 PM, it was not tiring at all as we were rested during the day. After each session, we were immediately brought back to the hotel (which is just a five-minute drive away) so we were not out nor didn’t stay up late either. If there is one thing we were thankful to do in Dumaguete, it was to catch up with sleep and relax and slow down a bit.

We did, however, go to the camp site in the morning twice. One was just to visit and see what the kids are up to during the day. Even though their plenary sessions were held in the evenings, they were still loaded during the day as they had activities, workshops, and trainings, e.g., the kids were taught how to do inductive bible studies as one of their training-workshops.

They also have what we in our church call love notes just like we do in our youth camps. Here they write messages to fellow campers as well as to the staff.

The second time we went to the camp in the morning was for a Q&A session. This was a session where the campers asked anything they wanted to the speaker (Eugene) and boy were their questions deep! Of course there were the usual questions on love and courtship and Christianity but I (nor Eugene, I suppose) did not expect the campers to ask about predestination, election, free will, Calvinism, and the like. Seriously! I was already an adult when I started to ask about those things. I didn’t even know anything about Calvinism until I was over 25 years old. The campers who asked about these things? They were just high school and college students!

Two campers playing with our little one.

Not only that, after the session, (some of) the boys couldn’t seem to have enough of their questions answered that they had an extended session with Eugene in an informal small group setting. I asked Eugene what did these boys ask. He just said the usual stuff about love and courtship. The session kasi was bitin. Eugene’s answers to the questions raised during the Q&A were long kaya only a few were asked. I think there are a lot of questions still lined up but the one-hour time allotted for it was already up. Anyway, I think an exclusive Q&A session is a very good idea to include in a camp as it would be a fun and learning session for everyone.

The elders and leaders of DCC were very much involved, too. They visited the camp and were present during the plenary sessions. Actually, during the Worship Service in their church before the camp started, it was announced that their prayer meeting for that week was cancelled as the members were encouraged to attend the camp instead. Parents also visited their kids. Back in 2014, Eugene has also been invited as a speaker in a youth camp (of a Chinese christian church, too) in Cebu and I remember that their pastor and leaders and parents of the campers visited and attended the plenary sessions of the camp, too.

This is the camp site which is interestingly called “Camp Seasite” in Banilad, Dumaguete. It’s not far from the town proper, just a few minutes drive.

The camp site is a single-storey structure mainly made of bamboo and nipa and is located beside a beach and a mangrove. The session hall, dining hall, and sleeping quarters are all located within the same building and are non-airconditioned. I even saw a tuko (monitor lizard) one time when we were there. A total of six kids occupy a room. The campers themselves served their meals and washed their dishes. It reminded me when I went to IVCF’s month-long Kawayan Camp way back in 2001 where we slept in kubos and also did the dishes.

Some of the campers washing the dishes after a meal.

Now, if there’s one thing that DCC’s and our church’s youth have in common, it’s the music and how they have their praise and worship time. The songs, the band, the dim lights, they were exactly the same Eugene actually said he felt like he was home.

The camp started on Sunday afternoon and ended on Friday morning. Eugene spoke in a total of five plenary sessions plus the Q&A during the six-day long youth camp.

Our little one (LO) playing with Pastor Thomas’ little one. Our LO loves to hug other babies.


The rest of our stay in Dumaguete is the vacation part. We mostly spent the rest of our time hanging out and dining out with Eugene’s family. (And motorbiking around town… because it is something we wouldn’t dare do in Metro Manila). We wanted to go to Negros Occidental to visit Eugene’s only surviving aunt (on his father’s side) to let her see our little one (LO). And also to make a side trip to Bacolod but we were not able to do so. Sad. We also didn’t, even for a day or half, go to a beach! Too bad, I thought our LO would be able to go to the beach for the first time. Sayang. I could only console myself and say, “next time.”

During the Q&A session on the 5th day of the camp.

I also celebrated my 37th birthday in Dumaguete. There wasn’t anything special we did, we (with Eugene’s family) just had dinner at Lantaw, the most famous restaurant in Dumaguete right now, I think, as it is always full regardless of the day or time. The place is already big so imagine when I say it is full. There must be more than 150 persons dining all at the same time. My birthday was on a Monday and when we went there we had to wait for quite some time as we were 15th in line.

All in all, we had a blessed and meaningful time of ministry in Dumaguete and also with family. It is always a joy to serve and minister to fellow brothers and sisters in Christ and we praise and thank God for the opportunity. We didn’t plan nor expect this trip so it was a blessing to go home to Eugene’s hometown and be with his family.

Hubby with his friend Pastor Thomas who invited Eugene to serve as the speaker for their youth camp.

We are very grateful to DCC and to their leaders and members for the very warm welcome and generous treatment we have received from them. We are very sorry we cannot remember your names but we would like to thank everyone who has hosted us for lunch or dinner and for the accommodation and transportation provided for us. Thank you especially to Elder Emmanuel Ho who has extended the most effort to accommodate us.

After the Q&A, the boys still had a lot of questions that they had an informal extended session with Eugene afterwards.

Of course, all these wouldn’t have been possible if not for the invitation of their Youth Pastor so to Pastor Thomas, thank you! Thank you for inviting us and for giving us the opportunity to serve and minister to your church.

We give God the glory.

Here are some more photos during our trip:

Dinner with another member’s family at Mooon Cafe. There was another member who hosted us for dinner but we were not able to take a picture with them.

On the last night of the camp, the campers washed each other’s feet as part of their Dedication Night.

Group picture with all the campers.

These boys took a selfie when I gave them my camera and asked one of them to take a picture of us with Pastor Thomas, his family, and Elder Emmanuel.

With Pastor Thomas and his wife and Elder Emmanuel. This was taken on our last night in camp after Eugene gave the final message and the challenge to the campers.

I bugged Eugene to take a photo with the banner bearing his name but he refused.

With Elder Emmanuel and his wife. This was taken on the last day of camp when they fetched us from the hotel to drive us to the house where we lived for the rest of our stay in Dumaguete.

Dinner with Eugene’s family in Gabby’s.

Lunch with Eugene’s family at Mooon Cafe after the Worship Service in First Baptist Church on the second Sunday we were in Dumaguete.

Dinner with Eugene’s family in Lantaw on my birthday.

Eating streetfood at the Boulevard, the road overlooking the sea.

Connect wedding: Alex and Ray Marie

19 May

Here comes the bride. Ray’s smile reflected her joy when she walked down the aisle to meet her groom, Alex.

It was an honor for Eugene and me to serve again as secondary (cord) sponsors in a wedding. It was our second time and it was also in a wedding of a couple who both serve in the Connect Ministry of GCF.

Exchange of vows. The wedding was officiated by Pastor Sam Rendal and was held in the chapel of GCF in Ortigas.

Though I am not very familiar with Alex and Ray’s story, I was really touched with their vows when they wedded last May 8 in Greenhills Christian Fellowship. They were really heartfelt. I’ve been to a lot of weddings and I’ve already heard different kinds of vows. It is the highlight in a wedding and the vows usually reflect the personalities of the couple getting married.

Can’t contain their excitement. This is just right before Alex and Ray were pronounced as husband and wife.

There are vows that narrates the couples love story… there are those that are full of humor… there are also vows that mention certain traits of the bride or groom which the husband- or wife-to-be promises to accept and submit to… and there are those that are impromptu, no kodigo at all… some are long… and some are cheesy and mushy.

Caption of the video above: The first kiss.

Alex and Ray’s vows were short, sweet, and simple… I would say straight to the point, nevertheless very sincere and heartfelt. I’ve been to a lot of weddings (as I’ve just said) and I can’t remember being seriously touched as much as like this time.

Photo session after the ceremony.

Alex and Ray did mention how God has worked to bring them together and how they are God’s answers to each other’s prayers. And in their words you could sense that they are devoted to serve and honor God through their marriage.

Selfie/Groufie with the newly weds right after the ceremony.

Sharing just a few more pictures of the event. 

Caption of the video above: The recessional.

We clanged our glasses non-stop so the newly weds would kiss again and again. Haha.

The traditional cake cutting ceremony.

And now a family picture with our little one.

We are praying for God’s blessings for both of you and in your marriage.

Mabuhay ang bagong kasal!

A shower of blessings for the Negis

27 Mar

We attended their wedding in June last year and now we attended a baby shower for them.

Emcees for the party.

Our friends Shyam and Christy are now expecting a baby boy. Their friends from the Connect Ministry (GCF’s ministry to workers in the BPO industry) organized a shower for them yesterday to bless the new family with love, prayers, and gifts.

There was a game for you to guess what gender will Shyam and Christy’s baby be.

It was just a simple party. Aside from the usual stuff (i.e., a couple of games and some snacks), Shyam and Christy revealed the gender of their baby through a gender reveal announcement. I’m aware of and familiar with the current trend on gender reveals and how it’s becoming a normal part of baby showers but it was my first time to attend one where there was an actual gender reveal announcement so I was excited about it. They’re having a baby boy, by the way.

Showers of gifts.

Of course, the party would not be a shower without the “ceremonial” gift-opening which was more or less the highlight of the event. We also showered the new family, of course, with prayers which Eugene led. We especially prayed for a safe and healthy pregnancy for Christy and the baby as Christy is experiencing some difficulty with her pregnancy.

Caption to the video above: I clicked on the record button too late to capture the start of the gender reveal announcement.

But what I find to really be the highlight and most meaningful during the celebration was when Christy shared the story behind the name they will give to their baby boy due in May. Christy shared that they will name their child Noah because Noah (in the Bible) was described as a “righteous man, blameless among the people in his time, and he walked faithfully with God” (Genesis 6:9). This is inspite of “how great the wickedness of the human race had become on the earth” (Genesis 6:5) and how “the earth was corrupt in God’s sight and was full of violence” (Genesis 6:11). “But Noah found favor in the eyes of the Lord” (Genesis 6:8). He was chosen by God to preserve the human race and eventually to save men through Jesus Christ. (Read the story of Noah here).

Showers of prayers and blessings.

And so they are blessing their child to be named Noah because when the time comes (when earth will be more wicked and corrupt than now), Shyam and Christy want their child to be like Noah, a “righteous” and blameless man who will be used by God to save people. Wow! That is a very powerful blessing to your unborn child.

Shyam and Christy with their Connect family.

(And that is also why the theme of the shower is Noah’s Ark).

Shyam and Christy, we pray for God’s mercy and grace to be upon you and Baby Noah. May God’s favor be indeed upon him and may he indeed grow up to be a righteous and blameless man in the sight of the Lord.

Eugene and I with the soon-to-be-new-parents.

We are rejoicing with you as you enter this new chapter in your life. We will also be here for you to walk with you in your parenting journey.

Our little one turns 1

21 Mar

We praise God we were able to pull off a party as our Little One (LO) turned one. I don’t have skills to host a party so organizing one was by the grace of God. We also praise God because we were able to celebrate our daughter’s first birthday and dedication in a special way.

Eugene giving his testimony on how we have been ministered to by Shiphrah.

When our LO was just a few months old, Eugene and I would casually talk about how we would like to celebrate her first birthday and dedication. I’m not really into parties (I always opt for a private celebration of personal or family events). But because she is our first born (which took us five-six years before we had her) and turning one is a major milestone (which I think deserves a celebration and because we didn’t celebrate her month-saries), something in me as a mother wanted to throw a party for her. But Eugene and I wanted it to be a simple celebration, something unique, something that would be meaningful to us as a family, and something that we hope she would appreciate when we tell her the story when she grows up.

Jeri Gunderson sharing what HELP Ministries is.

It was actually Eugene who came up with the idea of having it done in Shiphrah, the birthing home where our LO was born. We have been ministered by their care when I gave birth there last year and since then we have wanted to be able to minister to them, too. We’ve actually long wanted to let our friends know about it. We’ve also long wanted to visit the place again to say hi to the staff there especially to Ate Lorni and Ate Belle, my midwives. So when Eugene thought of the idea, I readily agreed and thought it would be the opportunity we’ve been hoping for. There would be no other better place to celebrate our LO’s first birthday and dedication than in the place where she was born with the people who helped me birth her. And to “return the favor” to Shiphrah, we thought of raising funds for them by requesting our guests to make an offering to Shiphrah in lieu of giving gifts for our LO.

Ate Lorni Bagro, one of my midwives, giving her testimony.

The party went well (I think so). It was short and simple but with the aim to introduce HELP International Ministries, Inc. (the missions organization that operates Shiphrah Birthing Home and ‘the little children’s home’, an orphanage) to our friends. Eugene and I started the program by sharing our testimonies after which Jeri Gunderson, Founder and Director of HELP, and Deborah Gustafson, Jeri’s daughter who also works for HELP, shared what the ministry is. Workers from ‘the little children’s home’ and my midwives from Shiphrah also shared their testimonies. After the highlights on HELP, Pastor Erik Dizon officiated the dedication ceremony. We then did the “traditional” (cup)cake candle blowing then Eugene closed the program in prayer. That was it. Short and simple. Of course, fellowship over simple refreshments followed after.

Pastor Erik Dizon praying a prayer of dedication.


We are very grateful to God and to a lot of people who have helped us for our LO’s first birthday celebration and dedication. I still plan to personally thank each of them but I will still mention them here. In no particular order, we are thankful to…

Parang napaka-OA o scripted ng kuha namin. Hahaha.

  • The Handog family who have given a lot of their time, effort, and resources in helping me plan this celebration. They also made the decors, set-up the place, and sponsored the sweets for dessert.
  • Kuya Api and Ate Chette, Jon and Mayette, John and Rajsh, and to Caleb and to Luan, for accepting our request to stand as ninongs and ninangs (godparents) to our LO.
  • Ate Bettylyn who also helped out in setting-up the place.
  • Jeri Gunderson who I coordinated with in HELP. Thank you for letting us hold the party in Shiphrah.
  • Ate Lorni and Ate Belle and to the other staff of HELP for sharing their testimonies.
  • Caleb for the drinks and for all the other help that day.
  • Rajsh for serving as emcee and for the icebreaker game.
  • Nino for taking the pictures.
  • Pastor Erik Dizon for officiating the dedication ceremony.
  • Karen and Teacher Angel for lending the songs we played.
  • Carol (Sweet Caroline’s Cakes) for making the cupcakes.

Our family.

    • Alyssa for lending your photo frame.
    • To all our friends who came and to those who gave offerings whether you came or were not able to. Total offerings received during the event amounted to PhP 21,000, exclusive of those who gave/will give directly to HELP. Thank you so much for this. Thank you also to those who have pledged to give directly to HELP.
    • Thank you also to those who gave gifts to our LO in addition to the offerings they gave to HELP. We couldn’t be more thankful.
    • The Barrera family for donating their old children’s books to ‘the little children’s home’.
    • For the new relationships that were formed. I don’t know yet the details but I know that connections were formed between members of my local Church GCF (Greenhills Christian Fellowship) and HELP and there were initial talks for our friends to minister to them. We pray these plans would materialize.
    • Most of all, we are grateful to God for allowing us to have this celebration. To be honest, I wanted to cancel it two weeks before the event because our LO got sick and was confined in a hospital twice (you can read about her confinement the first time here and the second time here). Thankfully, the party pushed through. We are thankful for our LO who gives us so much joy. We are also thankful for the strength and wisdom God has given us in our first year as parents. We know there are more hardships to come but we are confident God will be there for us.

    The staff of HELP International Ministries, Inc.

          HELP International Ministries, Inc.

          Taken from their website and Facebook page.

          HELP International Ministries, Inc. is a family organization that ministers to their community by showing God’s love through practical ways of providing hospitality and care. It operates ‘the little children’s home’, an orphanage that provides a loving and nurturing home for children who are in need of tender loving care until they are born into their forever families, and Shiphrah, a birthing home which provides dignified personal maternal health care to women.

          Our LO’s ninongs and ninangs. We don’t expect gifts on special occasions but please make sure to pray for her and for us parents.

          Shiphrah is close to my heart because I have personally experienced their care. Their midwives have been instrumental for my birth experience. (If you are patient and willing enough you can read my very long birth story here). It is also close to my heart because more than just a birthing home, it is a ministry so there is more than just helping women give birth. Their primary ministry is to their immediate community in Taytay, Rizal but it has “gained popularity” within the gentle birth community that pregnant mothers travel as far as from Bulacan, Laguna, and Cavite just to go to prenatal check-ups and give birth there. Mothers actually have been raving about Shiphrah. Though a lot of first time mothers go there, too, I’ve noticed that most who go there are 2nd (or 3rd or 4th) time mothers who wanted to have a better birth experience after their hospital births. A lot of them are VBAC (vaginal birth after cesarean) moms, too.

          I need to have a picture taken by the dessert bar courtesy of the Handog family.

          I hope to share to pregnant mothers that you can have a say and a choice when it comes to childbirth. Midwives at Shiphrah are professionals and they are trained for birth emergencies. They would also require you to have a back-up doctor and a plan just in case hospital transfers are required. They are trained to recognize complications early on. They would also refer you to an OB-Gyne if you have risk factors that necessitates medical care. So you could be sure you are in good hands. I have been ministered by their care that sometimes I want to be a birth educator or a midwife or a doula so I can also minister to other mothers in this way. But by simply letting people know about HELP and about Shiphrah, I hope I have already ministered to both of them.

          With Eugene’s co-workers, the GCF staff.

            If you want to give

            For those who gave an offering, thank you so much again and please know that your gifts would be used for the renovation of Shiphrah Birthing Home and for the continuing education and certification of their midwives as required by the Department of Health.

            Do check out HELP International Ministries‘ website to know more about ‘the little children’s home’ and Shiphrah Birthing Home.

            Follow also their Facebook page.

            If you want to make an offering, you may check this link.

            Thank you once again to all.

            We give God the glory.

            With Growth Group-mates.

            With friends from Dumaguete.

            With the rest of our friends.

            With the Handog family (Pastor Art, Ate Rose, and Yayeeh) and Ate Bettylyn and her daughter Hannah who all helped out with decorating the place.

            Sick again (and hopefully this would be the last)

            8 Mar

            Baby’s becoming a suki of The Medical City.

            That may sound funny but, seriously, a recurrent pneumonia and another round of hospital confinement just after a month is really not funny at all. (Read about the first time here).

            Passing time in the hospital. When you’re stuck in such a place, it’s very difficult to keep a toddler entertained.

            It all started on Wednesday… or Tuesday, if my theories are correct (kasi pinagmunimunihan ko talaga pano at bakit nagkasakit ulit si Baby while I was alone in the hospital). Eugene’s sister, her husband, and another family friend will be coming over for a vacation. As my OC-ness would have it, I wanted the house to be clean. Well, I’ve been meaning to have our house spring-cleaned for the longest time (since we moved in) but I just couldn’t find the time. So I took this opportunity to do so. I hired a couple of cleaners to do the job last Tuesday and that involved a lot of dust and the smell of (floor) wax which I think caused Baby’s hingal (short breathing) and triggered her pneumonia. Well, at least this is my theory because I’ve reviewed where we’ve been the past month and wala talaga kaming pinuntahan where Carissa could have been exposed. We mostly stayed at home. We go to Church on weekends but I don’t think she could’ve gotten it there. We’ve been to the mall twice but it was a very quick trip, mga less than two hours lang siguro.

            So I had our house cleaned. I asked my mother-in-law, Nanay, to look after Baby while I also cleaned and supervised the cleaners. She brought Baby outside the house in the morning. But after lunch, since it was hot outside, she brought her instead to our room which was freshly waxed. They stayed there until we all finished cleaning late in the afternoon. Since I was also busy, I forgot that the room still smelled wax. (I should’ve not allowed them to stay there). Also, the sun, which shines directly in our room in the afternoon, was pretty much out so the heat was really intense that day. Wax fumes + heat = not a good combination for a baby. I did turn on the aircon later on but I think an hour has already passed with Baby and Nanay inside the room when I did so.

            That was Tuesday, February 28. Wednesday afternoon Carissa started to have occassional coughs and I could tell by the sound of it that it would eventually be a full-blown one. True enough, the following day, Thursday, her coughs were a little bit worse than the previous day. I nebulized her that morning hoping it would prevent the cough from getting worse. In the afternoon, she started to be hingal.

            Again, I was hesitant to bring her to the ER because, first, she was not matamlay at all. She was playful. Also, she did not have a fever. She was normally malikot except for her hingal. Third is because her Tita et. al would be arriving the following day and we have plans of touring them around the city (okay, so I was FOMO). So I prayed hard for Baby to be well. And because I prayed, I believed it was nothing serious and in the morning she will be well as if nothing happened at all. Lastly, I didn’t want to bother Eugene with bringing Baby to the ER because he will be fetching our guests early the following morning and would be driving them around. He was just recently diagnosed with cardiomyopathy so I didn’t want him to get very tired.

            Hospitalized the second time for pneumonia after just a month.

            But Carissa’s breathing did not improve even after I nebulized her again in the early evening. In fact, it got worse towards the night. Still, because I was praying, I was hopeful that Baby would get well. I wanted to wait the following morning to see if she will improve after sleeping through the night.

            Now even if I was hesitant to go to the ER I was struggling and wondering (again) if I’m making the right decision. Carissa was really breathing fast. With her previous pneumonia a month ago she was breathing fast but it was just that. Hingal lang. This time, not only was she breathing fast, she was breathing hard and her chest and tummy was palpitating with every breath. The space in the middle of her collar bone just under the neck (what do you call that?), it was being drawn inward with each breath. I thought it was asthma. Finally, around 11 PM (it took me that long to decide), I finally asked Eugene to drive us to The Medical City (we had a borrowed car that night to tour her family the following day).

            Upon checking Baby in the ER, the doctor-on-duty said it sounded like it’s pneumonia again (and not asthma as I thought it was). And after a while, she apologetically asked if it’s okay for Baby to be admitted again.

            Again? She was admitted just a month ago for pneumonia!

            The doctor wanted her admitted because of her hingal. I know it was of particular concern because that was one of the major indications why she got admitted the first time. Pero dahil nga kaaadmit nya lang isang bwan pa lang ang nakakalipas, ayoko sana ipaadmit sya ulit.

            Baby was very masigla and malikot. She doesn’t seem to be sick at all. Whenever she’s awake I had to constantly tell her not to play with the gadgets.

            I tried to negotiate with the ER doctor (who was, thank God, very kind) and asked if home treatment would be possible. She said she will have Baby nebulized again and if her breathing will improve, we can go home. She also ordered an x-ray to be done on her (again).

            Well, hindi nawala hingal ni Baby after the nebulization in the ER so she got admitted again. I got really, really sad when the doctor said it was pneumonia again (confirmed through the x-ray). I knew then that I had no choice.

            What followed were the necessary routine procedures. Dating gawi. Another stressful night. Of course, she was again inserted with an IV line through which her medications will be given. The last time there was only one failed attempt to insert it on her hand. This time the nurses had three failed attempts. They tried inserting it on her left hand, then on her right hand, then on her left foot, before finally successfully inserting it in her right foot. Buti naman naipasok din kasi wala na syang extrang kamay at paa kung san pa pwede next. (That’s why the veins in her hands and feet are clearly visible now due to these failed IV insertions). She cried the whole time. Nakakaawa.

            When we got in our room (which was about 5 AM), I told Eugene to sleep at least for an hour before driving to fetch her sister from the airport. I am really concerned he doesn’t tire himself much because of his heart condition.

            If before I had Nanay with me during our stay in the hospital, this time I was alone because her daughter and son-in-law were in town so of course she had to be with them. Eugene also had to be with them to drive them around. So I was left alone. Ang lungkot lang. They did visit us twice but they stayed only for a short time. Eugene actually came and slept in the evening but he arrives late and leaves early in the morning. So I’m pretty much alone the whole time (except for the few friends who visited).

            If her IV did not get dislodged, we wouldn’t have been discharged a day earlier. She was so likot her IV always gets stretched like this.

            I’m also saddened that Carissa was given stronger antibiotics as well as steroids. The doctor explained that because it was only a month since her last pneumonia, a stronger antibiotic was needed. If it was more than six months ago na daw, they could give the same one given to her before. (Sa lahat naman ng iniiwasan ko ehyung magantibiotic si Baby… tapos twice pa sya nabigyan nang wala pang one year old. Nalulungkot talaga ako).

            And because Baby wasn’t responding to the nebulizations (hindi mawalawala hingal nya even after the second day and after increasing the frequency of her nebulizations to every four hours), the doctor prescribed to give her steroids. Kaya I really have a feeling her pneumonia was caused by the smell of the floor wax and not by the bug kasi if it was a bug, i think her symptoms would have been the same as before (fever, matamlay) and she would respond well with her initial medications as she did before. Pero hindi. She had fever and she was matamlay before (the first time she had pneumonia a month ago) so it was pretty sure she had an infection. This time, she didn’t have any fever and was very masigla and malikot (as in super likot para ngang wala syang sakit). Hingal lang talaga. So I think she didn’t have any infections, inflamed langyung airways kaya hindi mawalawalayung hingal nya… which is malamang dahil sa amoy ng floor wax. Again, this is just my theory. I did tell the doctor about this and she seemed to agree so I guess my theory’s correct. Hehe.

            Thankfully, Baby responded immediately to the steroids. Actually, I negotiated again with the doctor if we could avoid the steroids and just wait for the hingal to subside. But the doctor said she has extended enough time to see if Baby would improve with the nebulizations (true enough the doctor has been very gracious to all my requests) but still she hasn’t by the second day. It was only in the evening of the second day that the doctor gave steroids.

            At dahil mahilig talaga ako makipag-negotiate, every time the doctor would visit us, I would always ask how long will we stay in the hospital and jokingly tell her uwi na kami. We were supposed to be discharged Monday noon but Baby’s IV got dislodged (sa kalikutan) Sunday early afternoon so they removed it. Instead of reinserting it again, the doctor just decided to start giving her medicines orally. So again, I negotiated with the doctor if we can go home already (since there were no medications to be given through the IV anymore). Pumayag naman (I thought hindi sya papayag because that morning medyo hindi pa clear lungs ni Baby). Actually, if I have company, I wouldn’t mind staying as long as the doctor would recommend. But I was alone. So I wanted to get out of the hospital ASAP kasi nadedepress nako don. Thank God the doctor was really kind and allowed us to go home.


            This is a day after getting out of the hospital. Last dinner with Eugene’s family before they’ve gone back home to the province the following day.

            I, at least, still got to spend a day with Eugene’s family before they left early Tuesday morning. Happy for that one.

            Lord, sana po last nato. Please restore Carissa’s health and make her immune system strong again. Madami pa po kaming naka-schedule na adventures this year. Amen!

            #TeamPaRoll: Rollyvic and Pamela’s wedding

            24 Feb

            Nothing is more beautiful than a wedding that is focused on God.

            We are grateful for being invited to witness Rollyvic and Pam’s ‘I dos’.

            We had the honor and privilege of attending the wedding of Rollyvic and Pam last February 4. It was a garden wedding held at Lirabelle Nature Living (a farm of the bride’s family) in Batangas and officiated by no less than the groom’s father, Pastor Love Tira.

            The lovely bride who said her groom always makes her feel beautiful.

            The weather was cold but the hearts of the couple’s families were very warm as they welcomed the addition of a new family member into their respective families. I didn’t know that the Tira father and son were emotional persons. Rollyvic cried upon seeing her bride and there was a part when Pastor Love tried to control his tears as he gave his exhortation and message to the couple. The couple were obviously giddy and overjoyed they were getting married. Pastor Love capped the ceremony by singing ‘Our Father’ after which he requested all pastors present to pray for the newly weds.

            There was a very slight delay during the vows as they looked for who was holding the rings :).

            I don’t know the couple very well. But Rollyvic is Eugene’s fellow pastor who is currently the resident pastor in Greenhills Christian Fellowship (GCF) Makati. He is the son of Pastor Love Tira who is a well-known pastor within the Baptist community (and is currently assigned in GCF Metro Baguio). Pam, on the other hand, is a preschool teacher. I had previously met her a few times in the past in events/activities of the Crossover Ministry of GCF Ortigas Center when she attended a few times when said ministry was still active then. But I’m not sure if she knows or remembers me. Did I mention she surprised her groom with a song during their first dance? (She sang Yeng Constantino’s ‘Ikaw’).

            I couldn’t get any nearer to take a closer shot of the couple’s first kiss.

            What I like most and which, for me, gave the highlight of the wedding was when they gave (through a series of videos) their personal testimonies of their relationship with Christ, how they met, and how they grew more in Christ as they serve God together. Throughout the wedding, they honored and acknowledged Christ.

            The newly weds before the recessional.

            As I am writing this almost three weeks after the wedding, I couldn’t remember other details anymore. Sorry.

            Groufie with the couple. Sorry for the very poor shot.

            Mabuhay ang bagong kasal!